Face time

This week I'm continuing my IT education in hopes for a better job.  Night class, after my shift at CEC.  Which means that THE BOYFRIEND and I will not have ANY face time together for three days. 

Three days without seeing him.  Three days without seeing the only thing that is getting me by nowadays.  This is gonna be hard.  But it'll go really quickly, luckily. 

Plus, THE BOYFRIEND's bff is here for her job; going to be here about a week.  I was a teensy bit paranoid at first.  I mean, she happens to be here the same week that I have my night class, she will be seeing him more this week than I am.  But then I thought about how I get to see him all the time, about how I live with him, and how much I need to learn to trust him when he tells me that there is no way she is gonna take him away from me.  Trust.  That's one thing a relationship needs to have.  One large, almost all-emcompassing thing.  And I know that, despite being screwed heavily in the past by many relationships, I have to learn how to trust sometime.  Now is that time.  It has to be.

So, I trust him.  Now what?  Where do we go from here?  I wanna build a life with him.  I feel, no, I know, that he is the one that I want to settle down with me.  We aren't exactly alike.  But we are so perfect together in all the right ways.  He just completes me.  But I have no idea if he feels that way towards me.  Or maybe I'm just gonna be the perfect one, until I move away to a place he doesn't want to move to, and we break-up.  Because that is what it sounds like to me.  Is that what a perfect relationship is?  Being together only because we are in the same place at the same time? 

I didn't think so.  Call me a hopeless romantic but I don't want to waste my time building a relationship here and now, when there might not be a future.  I am building this relationship for the future. 

Serious chats need to happen.