Yeah I'm so .... Yeah

Found something out today after our second round...  we both like to be dominated during sex.  I totally smiled at that.  Not sure if that means one more reason we are good together, or if that is just going to get complicated.  We are going to have to take turns being dominated.  Not sure how to dominate, actually.  It was getting in the way today a bit.  I really just wanted him to tell me what to do, and he just wanted to be told what to do.  He said first,

"How do you want me?"
"Anyway that I can."

He was lying down on his back, plus his back had been hurting today, so I just got on top.  After a few minutes, he said to me,

"How do you want me?" 

In my head, I'm thinking,

just fucking take me already. 

But I just said out loud to him,

"OH, I'm just going to ride you like this, then I want you to turn me over and take me."
"oh yeah?"
"Just turn me over and fucking take me.  Take me hard." 

So, he did.  And OMG!  After he came, we collapsed in a very sweaty, exhausted mess together.  Which is when I said to him, between finding my legs again,

"If you can't already tell, I like to be dominated during sex."
"Yeah, so do I." 

I have no idea if I was doing the dominating then, or being dominated.  Either way, I think it worked.

Oh and I dodged a bullet today.  I was invited to a thing again, this time for an Oscars viewing party.  I was looking through the invited list.  Then I saw it.  "Katie Arnold."  I think my head almost fucking exploded.  NO!  It can't be!  THE BOYFRIEND'S ex also had the same last name as me!?  Oh hell FUCKING no!  So I quickly texted a friend who knew the both of us.  And THANK FUCKING GOD  that's not her last name.  Just some other Katie who has the last name as me.

My life has become half work, one quarter THE BOYFRIEND, and one quarter worrying and thinking about her.  I need to learn how to stop worrying and love the bomb.

Er, learn how to forget that she was there first.  Yeah, I know.  Good luck with that, darling.  She is totally Dr. Strangelove here.

And I am just Group Captain Lionel Mandrake

If you've seen the movie, you know what I'm getting at.  I'm in deep shit.  I just need to be more like this:

Love the bomb, and ride all the way down til it kills ya!  Is that what Kubrick was getting at?