... A Toddler Could Drown In My Panties

The amount of time that we are spending together came up last night.  THE BOYFRIEND brought it up.  We are spending quite a lot of time together.  But since HE brought it up, does this mean that he is wanting less time together?  Not sure.  Today (tuesday) is a day that we are not going to see each other.  Shouldn't be too bad.  It's not like when I went home for Christmas.

THE BOYFRIEND came over yesterday after his shift, so he could crash.  He had a hard time producing a 2 hour news program that he usually doesn't produce,  and had felt like he crashed and burned the whole program.  I did my best to soothe his psyche, but knowing that he lives in his own head like me, I knew that no matter what I said, he needed to work things out in his own head.  At about 1ish, we left for St. Augustine.  We cleaned out his car to take it to a dealer so he could trade it in for a better car (that car was SHIT!).  We get it all cleaned out, turn the key to the ignition, and.... click, click, click.  Battery isn't starting.  Pounding on the steering wheel and dashboard, we called one of his friends to come give us a jump.  Yeah, that didn't work either.  SO, we gave up on trying to start the car.  As we are parting from the car, the girl that came and helped us out said,

"Make sure you listen to the boss."

Meaning me.  Which prompts the following from him,

"I should never have introduced you two."

Yeah, it's the same girl from the office holiday party, and the NYE party just this past Saturday.  She and I both laugh.  I tell him,

"You know that if you HADN'T introduced us, I probably wouldn't be here now, with you."
"Yeah, I know.  I would just be the weird, new guy sitting in the corner of the newsroom."

After dealing with the car, we get high and get ready for bed.  But OF COURSE, we really want to fuck instead of sleeping.  And then, I want to fuck AGAIN, right after he finishes; obviously the quick and dirty fuck didn't satisfy me all that much.  Plus, for being high, I was exceedingly wet and I want to use it to the best of my capacity.  He doesn't come the second time; I really wanted to see him cum again.  It is the most amazing "Oh" face.  He apparently likes watching my face, right after I cum.  Don't' know what he sees there, but he gets all excited and smiles really big.  We exchange the usual,

"I love fucking you."  "You feel soooo good."  "You are fucking incredible."

, etc.  And then I hear something that that piques my interest, mostly because I didn't hear it very well.  It sounded like "I love you."  But it was rather ... pause-y.  So he could have put other words in there that I certainly didn't hear.  I didn't say anything back;  I wasn't sure what he said.  Fuck putting myself out there like that until I know.  Already experience THAT with the boyfriend and it certainly wasn't good.  He has been giving me the look a lot lately, and saying

"You are so amazing and so nice to me."

What would I be?  A bitch?  Everyone deserves someone to be nice to them; reminds us that we are human.  We all fail and make mistakes, but so do computers and machinery.  So, why is failing and making a mistake going to remind us that we are human?  It's not.  Be nice to someone who deserves it today, and all days.