When I got to St. Augustine, I was also out of it, serverely exhausted to the point of hyperness and giggling incessantly. THE BOYFRIEND thought that was funny too. But I needed a nap, so we napped for about 2 hours. I woke up and was ready for the rest of the day. But AGAIN, I couldn't wake his ass up. I was about ready to head down to The Tavern without him, when I decided that 1) I don't really want to go there alone; and 2) that would be a mean thing to do. So, I tried waking him up again. I succeeded after about 5 tries, and 40 min after I woke up. We left to stuff our faces with yummy cheesesteaks sandwiches and then for me to drink to drown.
While we were drinking, we were discussing when to set our alarms to wake up. I told him that I would wake up with the alarms, kick him out of bed then go back to sleep. Wasn't going to make coffee for him. He gave a pouty face. To which I replied,
"Eh, I'll probably make coffee for you. Then go back to sleep."He just shrugged and we dropped it.
"Yeah, because you like me."
"I do, and you are using that to your advantage."
"And you use the fact that you are cute to your advantage all the time."
"Oh really and how do I do that?" I said laughing
After getting home from drinking my three beers, we were lying in bed and cuddling up against each other and drifting off to sleep, he asked me
"Are you happy?"I don't know why he asked that. Can't he tell that I'm happy with him, that he has a lot to do with it? I opened up to him, much later. You know, what I had been thinking and feeling all this week concerning us. Really putting my heart on the line to him.
"Yes, I am really happy now."
"Do I have anything to do with it?"
"Yes, you have a lot to do with my happyness. .... Are you happy with me?
"Yes, I am really happy with you."
"I'm really falling for you. And I'm confused about it."And this repeats. I mean, I don't know why it is that guys feel like if a woman presents a problem to them that they gotta solve it. If I want a problem solved I'm gonna ask "what do you think?" or "What should I do?" Finally, after hazily realizing that I'm not going to get anywhere with this, I just tell him
"Why are you confused?"
"Well, because I have these feelings for you and I don't know what to do. We are both going to continue to look for work elsewhere, but I don't know if that's right for me, right now."
"Are you happy and enjoying yourself right now?"
"Yes, of course I am."
"Then you should just let yourself enjoy it and don't worry. I don't want to tell you what to do."
"And I'm not expecting you to. I'm just saying what I'm thinking, what's been in my head all week."
"Look, I've been told that I keep things inside myself, my feelings all held inside."Yeah, I tried opening up to him. And all I got in reply to that last statement was,
"Yeah, I've noticed."
"This is just me opening up to you, to try to let you inside what I'm thinking and going through."
"I like you."DUUUUUDDE. THE BOYFRIEND obviously has no clue what to say sometimes. Like I've said before, he's young and a guy. I just rolled over and went to sleep. Later, when his alarms went off I got up to make him coffee, feeling really terrible and hung over, leaving him to sleep a bit longer. But I made him coffee. Woke him up, got him out of bed, and then went back to sleep. You know, sometimes he's should get up to make me coffee when I need to be at work and he doesn't. I feel like his mother sometimes. When I got to work today, he thanked me for making him coffee, telling me that I'm amazing for doing so. I just replied,
"Yeah, I know. Just as long as we are on the same page about that."
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