The future is just a complicated game

I was talking with a fellow cave worker of mine about THE BOYFRIEND, about how fast things seem to be going and how I'm confused as to what I should do concerning career prospects and my future with THE BOYFRIEND.  He told me that I just need to be forward with him, to just come clean and ask him what he feels about us and the possibility of a future with him.  And I wanted to yesterday after my shift ended.  But it never happened.  I need to do it when both of  us AREN'T inhibited by substances.  I know I'm falling for him, and I need to know how he feels about the future of ... us.  We're both really happy that we got together, that we "happened."  His friends really like us together, too.  But what does that mean for our future?  When is the best time to ask him this?  I know that he isn't going to bring it up, that I need to be the one who does.  Thinking about the future sucks.  I am trying to just let this relationship flow, to be as it wants to be.  But I can't put my career on hold until he gets a job elsewhere and I'm stuck here without him because I put my own career on hold to be with him.  I'm not talking about marriage.  And I would hate for it to sound like that is what I want.  I'm talking about, I guess, is knowing how he feels about me.  But I already know.  I can see it in the way he looks at me, in the way he treats me.  So I guess that's just what I'm going to have to do.  Ask him in a "what if" way.  You know, what if I get a job in tampa, are we still going to try to be together?  Or is a long distance relationship not worth it to him?  UGH!  XTC had it right.  Life and Love is a complicated game.